"After this, you will be the best producer in town" said the big boss in the first meeting. Those words are making my heart shivering. I know I am having my back to the wall now. This is going to be ten times worst than a soldier training.

Now I feel as if I am going back to my university life in the past - running around the campus, making calls in the office, preparing activity proposals, dealing with budget of some clubs, and at the same time catching deadlines of my course assignments. A lot of my course mates were even claimed that I have no life. Well, how do we define life?

Nonetheless, my university life was not only filled with works and studies. Weekly martial art training, Chinese Orchestra performances, watching movies with aikido gangs, playing tennis with house-mates, reading and painting kept the equilibrium of my university life.

Actually this wasn't my first plan. My first choice was to be an animator! Sent my resume but never get any reply after that. So I went for my second choice which is to be an editor. Again, I sat and waited patiently.

A ring broke the silence when I was disappointed by having no reply. As a jobless person, I have no reason to reject this opportunity even it wasn't listed as one of my choices. I know I will get crazy if I continue staying at home doing nothing!

After I verbally agree with the position offered, only calls from my past applications start vibrating my phone. I have no choice but to reject those opportunities that I had been waiting for.

This is how I get myself into the situation today. Can I survive by the end of September? Time will tell...