The reason is not because I want to go back right at the dot of office hour, it is also nothing to do with getting a praise from the boss or avoiding traffic jam after 5 pm.
The little secret (which is not a secret now) is to spare myself sometime and hang around in the Compositing Department. I love sitting beside those compositors and watch how they do their work. It was how I realise there are a lot of effects that not necessary needed to be done in 3D. Of course I understand that watching the others doing will be a total different story when the same work comes under me.
It's time to test it in my own computer! :D
Well, basically this is how my everyday life is (extracting watching movies, aikido training, blogging, dreaming, animating, drawing, and reading at night :D ).
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
In the olden days, teenagers at our age in my hometown seldom have a hand phone and not a lot of us have an email account. After graduate from high school, most of us headed to out stations or even overseas for further studies. Without any media (phone number, hand phone number, address and email address) to support our connection, obviously we will lose contact with each other.
However, the lifestyle today is so much different if compare with the past. Today, the portable hand phone has become a necessary item not only for teenagers but also for those children in primary school. According to a friend of mine who were teaching in an English tuition class, those children were keep "SMSing" their friends but not concentrating on the class. Well, this is not a good sign isn't it?
Back to my friend, we know each other since the first year in high school. We were studying in the same class, learning Liu Qing (one of the Chinese Orchestra Instruments) together and supporting each other to reduce the pressure that we were having at the competition eve. It is irrefutable that we had been through numerous of experience together. The memories included sour, sweet, bitter and ruthless.
Still remember the Chinese Orchestra Camps that we had been through. Those were some hard time for me. Imagine everyday have to wake up early in the morning and start playing music till late night. But I enjoy it because she was there together with me. We were the only two persons who play the same instrument in the instrumental ensemble competition. Hence, it was very important for us to support each other. She is a good player of Liu Qing. I really appreciate her effort of sharing skills with me. Sincerely thanks her for that.
Monday, June 20, 2005
All already soft spoken and now I can't even voice out. Terrible sore throat. Wonder how am I supposed to go for the presentation at National Art Gallery later.
Plan B
Let the boss to do all the presentation, I just sit back and watch? Hehehe :D
Keep drinking water... Searching for vitamin C.
Friday, June 17, 2005
= watchfulness against attack danger or surprise
= position of readiness to defend oneself
= person (soldier or policeman) who watches over somebody or something.
= person who watches over prisoners in goal
= group of soldiers who protect buildings
= duty of soldiers with the duty of protecting, honouring or escorting somebody.
Nevertheless, it is miserable that the reality is always different with how it suppose to. KLIA guards behind the thefts?!! Additionally, there were at least three of them have been pilfering items from bags at the KL international Airport. To add to the insincerity, one of the culprits was a member of a special task force formed to bust foreign syndicates stealing baggage at the airport. My jaw dropped down when I read the line - Those involved were believed to have been at it for at least 10 years, from the days when the international airport was at Subang. I wonder how could this allowed to happen. It is suppose to be the biggest international airport in our country!
What are their jobs again? Aren't it manning scanners and examining the thousands of bags scanned daily before they loaded aboard planes, look out for banned substances like drugs, and dangerous cargo such as explosives, maintain the security of the airport. In actuality, their duties created opportunities for them to look for their interest. They could easily spot the valuables (watches, cameras, jewellery, laptops, mobile phones, binoculars and video camera) from the bags.
I just can't believe the authenticity of life. I always go back hometown by plane and the iMac is a usual item that I must bring along with me to everywhere I go. I had been trusting the security system in the airport. I believe they will help me to take care of it along the journey with the stickers which were full of the word, "fragile" around it. Well, luck was still on my side, nothing bad had happened to my baby. I suppose it was too big for them to seal if compare with laptops.
Well, the management of KLIA better reorganise their security system not only for the benefits of themselves but also for the image of our country!
As the matter of fact, I don't really like guards, especially those guards from my university. I was staying in the hostel for the whole of my university life. There is a rules that set by the security department which is saying every students are suppose to ask for a permission letter and show it to the security guard at the exit if we want to bring back any computer related items even those items are belong to ourselves. This had created a lot of trouble for us, as a student. Remember there was once my parents drove for seven hours all the way from the top north and due to some sudden situations, they are suppose to bring my computer along with them back to the hometown. Unfortunately it was one O'clock in the morning. I went to the security department and ask for the permission letter but no one was around. So we just head to the exit hoping the security guards at the exit will understand and let us go with my computer.
Nope, you can't go out with the computer. Is already over twelve midnight and no one is allow to bring out any computer!
My parents droved from my hometown which is very far. We seriously need to go back with the computer now. Can you please let me go for once?
No. You should know that you are not able to bring it out after midnight. This is the rules, we can't break it.
Please... please... please...
All right, I will call the head department and ask. I can't make this decision myself.
After 15 minutes, the Head of security department came with a bike. His body was glowing, the wings of angle were growing from his back, and the moon light was focusing right on the spot where he stopped his bike.
Dah pukul berapa ni? (What is the time now?) You should know the rules of your university! This is the rules and I can't change it just because of you.
Out of sudden, the glowing light turned dark, angle wings disappeared, and moon was blocked by the cloud.
Originally, the Permission Letter System that they created was to avoid computers being stolen from the campus. But the truth is, students' computers in hostels still keep disappearing especially during holiday. Their system never helps the situation but created a lot of trouble for parents and students.
In the end, my parents had to stay in a hotel for a night and only go back home the next morning after I got the valuable Permission Letter. I feel so sorry to my parents for the troubles. It was my entire fault for not knowing the rules of my own university well and lack of planning. The past is the past, what I can do is just not to repeat the same mistake.
.: Can't wait for my convo in this September!! :.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
I was about to have another memento this afternoon, but the time was not right. The artist who we were looking for went out before we reached his shop. It was my fault for eating so slow I suppose.
In the unfortunate situation, I had another option which was to go for another artist who was offering himself for the task. But I chose to say "no" with some stupid excuses - "His work is too artistic for the task, his shop is too hot and I can't stand staying in his shop for too long and etc". Actually the main reason was, once I decide on something I really like, I will not mind spending years waiting for it without considering any other options. Above and beyond, it is not easy for me to fall in love on something I feel worth to wait.
At least, the speed and smoothness of my working progress today was considered as a success. An undertaking which was claimed can only be done in few days but I manage to complete it in two hours. So, today is not considered as a bad day for me. I am so proud of myself and at the same time, I would like to thank the helpful guard for helping around when hands were needed. I know there will be more for me to learn in the coming commissions and I am ready for it!
I always believe that as long as I don't waste my time doing nothing, I am gaining something every second.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
While I was taking pleasure in my first visit to rubber estate, a bunch of mosquitoes seemed to enjoy their gathering around one of my friend too.
"Wah, a lot of mosquitoes are flying at your back!"
"Yeah, I know. Same to you!"
"Oh... Is it?!!"
Omg... omg... I started to feel itchy from my head till my toe. But no matter how hard I tried, I still can't get myself away from them. This situation only happened to both of us though. Mac, who was wearing white T-shirt and long pant managed to escape from being one of the victims.
.: Must always remember: Black and white make a big different! :.
Friday, June 10, 2005
This is the sentence that always appears in my mind today. My gratifying morning was created by R. boys who I respect and admire so much. Deeply thanks for bringing me along today.
The main intention of me following there was just to have a look on this new company which able to hire so many employees at once! Above and beyond, I already have a job working as an organiser. If not because of R. boys, I am pretty sure I will not step in the company anytime until the employment on my hand is completed.
I was so not prepare for the sudden interview. To make the situation worst, I brought nothing to show the manager about my work. Again, I have to admit that R. boys bought the luck to my side. The DVD with the compilation of all our final year projects that they bought along distorted the disgraceful situation.
The line - "Your work is good; of course I want to hire you!" came out from the manager surprised me. I know my final year project isn't good enough. (lack of facial expressions, bad controlling in hair and cloth, normal effects used, lack of appealing... and I didn't even get in to the top 20 list out of 65.) All in all, it is just a very "student" work. Nevertheless, I was still feeling on top of the world while hearing his line. Still, I have to reject his offer with the reason "I am already working with another company now".
Somehow, I am motivated to improve myself even the skills are not needed for my current employment. Thanks again to R. boys for all these. I had a great time having lunch cam discussion with them. What I respect most about them are their lofty personalities - tolerant, understanding, and responsible. I had a great time working with them in the past and I feel reverence for them!
A ring from the office ended the conversation
Thursday, June 09, 2005
I am not saying I hate organising and managing work. It is quite challenging for me with my background (creative multimedia). I am a person who loves challenges. I don't mind spending all my personal time and work very hard for a success. However, besides working hard, I must also learn to work smart. This was the lesson that i gain during my study ages.
"The Apprentice" is one of my favourite TV program. Donald Trump and Carolyn Kepcher are my idols besides my parents. It is a reality show in which billionaire Donald Trump passes on his business wisdom to would be apprentices, but Trump is also a grim reaper: One "apprentice" gets fired at the end of each show. In the end just one will be left standing to claim a $250000-a-year job with Trump.
The great fun of watching the show is I get to gain knowledge of how those aggressive and smart candidates handle jobs that assigned as a team leader or even a team member in reality. There are a great deal of workplace strategies to be scholarly, from behaving and dressing appropriately to managing a project. Leadership and managing skills will not bring a person to a success without excellent communication skills and behaviours. I find true not only for a business but also for our daily life. However, it is really up to everyone to make their own analysis. I personally don't agree the idea of using "female assets" in order to win.
Above and beyond, the real world is showed right the way through "The Apprentice". Jealousy, backstabbing caddy crap, and fake approaches are what we generally see in the workplace arena. As the result, there are good people out there who loose jobs based upon abuse such as this.
Read about this from The Star. The mysterious of Sphinx, pyramids, mummies and the history of Ancient Egypt always gain my interest. Most of the histories about Egypt are still without definite prove. Why? When? Who? How? Are the few words that most scholars are still repeating. However, seem that they will never get most of the answer.
The discovery of the young pharaoh's tomb in 1922 - the only one in the valley of the kings that was found relatively intact - generated world wide interest.
His death is shrouded in intrigue. He was only 19 and it was widely believed that the young pharaoh was murdered.
To top it all, there were rumours of a curse placed on those who disturb the pharaoh's tomb. Initial examination indicated foul play in the death of young king. Dr Douglas Derry who carried out the first autopsy in 1925 noticed a lesion on the left check. An X-ray showed a stray fragment of bone lodged in the skull that could have been caused by a blow to the head.
Further X-rays carried out also revealed the front of the ribcage missing. But the injuries could have happened during the embalming process. It was, however, noted that the tomb was exceptionally small and not intended for royalty. This pointed to an unexpected death of the king and a hurried burial. Those who believe that Tutankhamun was murdered offered various motives and likely suspects.
Some scholars suggest that those fearing a return to his father's religious practice could have murdered Tutankhamun.
Ay, a general, and who succeeded Tutankhamun is high on the suspect list. There is the remarkable letter from Queen Ankhesenamun, Tutankhamun's young Widow, informing the King of the neighbouring Hittites that her husband was dead and that she was unwilling to marry one of her subjects which would have made him king.
She offered to marry a Hittite prince. "My husband is dead and I have no son... I am afraid," she wrote. Some scholars believe that she was under pressure to marry Ay. But Ankhesenamun herself is a suspect in Tutankhamun's murder and some Egyptologiests suggest that she wanted to rule Egypt with Hittite support.
But recent CT scan images seem to support those including Dr Zahi Hawass., who argue that Tutankhamun was not murdered.
The images showed that a fracture in the left leg was the only physical injury suffered by Tutankhamun but resulting complications could have caused death. But this finding is unlikely to end the murder theory or diminish the continuing fascination with Tutankhamun.
The fear of the Pharoahs' curse has long been the stuff of fiction and films. It is a subject that has stirred public imagination. There are those who believe that the pharaohs placed a curse on whoever disturbed their place of eternal rest.
When Lord Carnavon died on 5 April 1923, barely six months after the expedition's discovery of Tutankhamun's tomb, it appears that there was indeed a curse. The Times journalist who covered the discovery of the tomb was killed in a motor accident.
But in fact Lord Carnavon died as a result of cutting an infected mosquito bite while shaving with a razor.
He was 59 when he died in Cairo. A study done recently by a Monash scholar found that the average lifespan of the 25 people present at the opening of Tutankhamun's tomb in November 1922 was 70. This should dispel the myth that they died prematurely.
Carter passed away in 1939 at the age pf 66. The Times reporter's accident took place in 1942. Still, all these deaths were lumped together and seen as the outcome of a pharaoh's curse.
Even Dr Hawass, Secretary General of Egypt's Supreme Council of Antiquities, appeared to have a strange encounter with the pharaoh's curse while carry-ing out the CT Scan project at Tutankhamun's tomb. He was asked during a recent interview on National Geographic Channel whether he had been worried about a curse.
"The idea of the curse was a joke to me but when the storm occurred in the Valley (of Kings at Luxor) on that day, and the husband of my sister died and the CT scan machine was stopped for one hour. I began to worry... but now I laugh." To Dr Hawass the chain of events he encountered was pure coincidence.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Why? You are not going with us?
(Turn left... turn right... )
But don't you feel like want to experience this at least once?
(Turn left... turn right... )
Answering in my mind: Nope. High volume's sounds will make me fall asleep. I know it is a strange behaviour, but it is how I am. I can go for classically music concert few hours but I just can't stand awake under rock music with such a high volume.
But now you are the organiser for M event. Do you know that every year, the awards night was in place like this?
Oh, really?! I didn't know that.
(Staring at him with my mouth wide opened)
Yes. It is the culture for this event!
All right, I will go.
(Reached home)
(After 30 minutes... I walked pass the kitchen wearing a simple black T-shirt with a long white pant. He turned and looked at me from up to down...)
erm... you know where are we going right?
Yeah, I do.
erm... going there have to wear "pretty... pretty..." ler
Oh... really? I thought I can simply wear the style that I feel comfortable with. So late already, still need to wear "pretty... Pretty..." ?
Alllllllll right... is up to you then
Fine, I will change!
(After 10 minutes, I opened the door of my room and he was just standing right in front of me.
Wah... Very pretty!
(oh wait, why did I need to ask for his improvement regarding my own clothing? Anyway, I still don't feel comfortable to go out at night with a skirt. I decided to change back the long pant. )
Once I stepped in the "cloud" house, my white shirt, long white pant, and the white high hill starts glowing. Oh god! I didn't know everything in white here will glow. I start blaming my house-mate for not telling me about this in advance.
The music was loud and noisy for me but thank goodness I didn't fall asleep. I suppose it was because I have no chair to sit down. Since I already there, I might as well not wasting the money and be a stone standing a side. I tried to enjoy like everyone else. But this is really not my type. After having the "fun", most of us went back with Red eyeball, heavy eyelids and dragging legs. What is the point of suffering ourselves like that?
This is not a suitable work for me.
This is going to give me a very hard time.
But since i accepted the job, I will try my very best to enjoy while completing the task.
Lately, I been doing things that I never did before, been expressing the opposite side of my nature. This is so NOT ME! And obviously, I am not happy.
THEN WHY DID I ACCEPT THE JOB IN THE FIRST PLACE?
Answer: I was getting crazy for being too free and getting no reply from all the resumes that I sent earlier.
What do I like to be most? I had been telling myself I like to be 3D animator. But do I?
This issue was also brought up by one of the interviewer during my interview for the job as a 3D animator.
"If you like to do animation, then why did you do video editing more than animating?" a good question that he asked which I didn't know how to answer during the interview.
"It is because I like it more!" as simple as that. Why didn't I think of it earlier? Oh well... now is a bit too late to realise that.
Nevertheless, I believe the job that I am working on will definitely creates opportunities for me to grow up mentally. As long as I am not wasting my time doing nothing, I will gain something in return. I should not feel regret for the choice I made.
